Sooo, basically, I just woke up out of my sleep crying. Sigh, I had a dream about my dad. Don't get me wrong, it was a good dream, not those scary-type nightmares that people would think of. I haven't had a nightmare in such a long time though. Oh well, its not like I really want one! lol
Ohkaaaay, where were we? Yup, my dream. I don't quite remember it, but its not often that I dream about him (my father). See, my dad died when I was like 2 and a half... almost 3 years old. Even though I was really young, I can still remember the last time I saw him. :'( Yes, I have very good memory, 'cuz that was like 15 years ago. Its easy to know how many years ago it was because my brother was born the very same year my father died. :|
Sad......... I know, life is rough. He was born after my dad died.
That must suck for my bro right? Nah, he's ok. The one that was the most hurt was and still is my mother. She doesn't show it anymore but I know she misses him. And obviously from reading my blog title. This here blog is gonna be about the most important woman in my life, my everything. My mother :)
I love her so much! Although I don't really show her how much I love her, I know she knows that she's the most important person in my life. After all, if I lose her... I won't have a parent anymore. I try not to think about that very often. My mommie, she is both mother and father to my bro and I. She does both roles, she's very good at them actually. If there was a 'SuperMom Awards' I think she would be in the running to get the trophy! hehe She's always working though, well since recently and I know my brother and I really miss the quality time we used to spend together. Going to the movies, going to the park, going on vacations... yes with our mother lol. :p
Oh well, we both know that all this work is only for the better. I have a good life and I am very thankful for that. But, what I don't like are people who judge me and think my life is perfect. o.O
It's like no one understands how it feel to be me. Sigh
Back to mommie, she is great if I could rate her out of 10, and I'm going to be very honest. I would give my mother a 9! Yes, a 9. I know most people are going to wonder. "Why would she give her mother a nine?"
Well lets just say she's not all that perfect, in fact no one is. But she's as perfect as they get. I wouldn't change her for the world. I love her just the way she is, miserable, loud, crazy, mad, lovable, cuddly, pretty, caring etc. Those eight adjectives best describe my mother, she's the best. She inspires me everyday, I can't even be angry with her for more than and hour. lol To even show how much I love my mother, I have writer's block. :/
I don't even know what to write, that's because words cannot explain to amount of gratitude and love I have towards my mother.. That's just the thing she's MA MÈRE and with all the pros and cons list I could make about her. I know definitely the pros would outshine the cons. First of all, how many cons could there even be? lol Not that much! Maybe about 5? With thousands and thousands of pros! :D
To end all this rambling, I just hope she knows that I love her very much and I would never trade her. Even so, I hope I don't live to see the day she is gone from this earth. I would rather the Lord take my life, before her. I don't think I could even live knowing that I can't call up and bother her D: that would be so terrifying.
I love you mommie! ♥
My Mother! :)
This song sums it up the best :)
